artsysharlie asked: wow,I just read your entire post. While my freshman year of college was not as intense as yours-it does parallel in several ways. But "college is apparently all about destroying ideals and dreams"..nah,that's not true. If anything you came out a helluva whole lot wiser. Take each mistake & regret as a lesson learned I'd say. Emotion can override logic like a mutha when it comes to matters of the heart allowing yourself to be in a vulnerable state. BUT, with the things that have happened to you and you knowing better-its up to you to not fall for shady guys like that. Easier said than done,I know.Not all guys are like this though believe it or not.You just have to take the majority at face value-what you see is what you get. Most have their hidden agendas and are always down for finding the "vulnerable,naive"girl to fuck and then "on to the next one". However, you can't drown in despair with liquor,drugs,etc. What good will that do?Other than a chain reaction,right? I'm sure you've grown up a lot and become much-much wiser to the bullshit and how callous and emotionless people can be,so never,ever allow anyone that power over you. A temporary high and instant gratification will only lead you to feeling like this again. I'm rambling and preaching..sorry,but you kind of sounded like me a year ago haha. I believe love is out there-but trying to find it in the midst of 20something college guys looking for some action takes time.Matter of fact don't even look,it'll come as cliche as that sounds. In the midst of you losing yourself and trying to find your way-you've got to cut ties with all of that negativity-every single part. The guys,the people,everything. Take from it all to build and grow. When its all said and done,these people do not give a damn about you so why stress your mind and soul. You have to be secure in who you areand the shit you are not done with and won't put up with. And be honest with yourself,then it'll be easy to weed out who is geniune and who is not. Soo,yea:) Don't repeat the same mistakes and actions that caused all your pain. Don't compromise and don't bargain.If you do repeat these actions on purpose,you have no one to blame but yourself. So take what you've done and grow:) Best wishes girly!
wow thanks! i never think anyone ever reads my posts :) so that means a lot. i think my post came out sounding slightly more bitter than i actually am i just needed some kind of release just because i haven’t released some of that ever before. but seriously thank you so much! you have no idea how happy your message just made me!! and yeah, i really don’t know what else to say :)
